November is my least favorite month and always challenging. At this time of the year, pretty much like clockwork, I dip towards depression, my thoughts are scattered, and like many others, I tend to go through some sort of seasonal health adjustment (a.k.a. cold or flu). The circle of the year draws towards completion as Earth's energies are drawn on the inward journey to hibernation that must come before renewal. Staying in tune with this centripital force has been very helpful in combating the seasonal mood disorder I used to experience (don't even get me started on the "holidays"...) Eating more carefully, respecting my need for rest, lots of warm liquids, extra vitamin C, maybe a little Echinacea, contribute to wellness. And then there's pranayama - breathing practice.
It would seem that something as basic as breathing would be, well, basic. In fact, the act of respiration is under both autonomic and voluntary control; i.e., respiratory functions are regulated by the central nervous system but the depth, pace and rate of breathing can be altered by consciously controlling the breath. And therein lies one of Yoga's greatest tools.
I've been reading, and thoroughly enjoying, Richard Rosen's "The Yoga of Breath," and noticing my own breathing as a result. I maintain a (nearly) daily meditation and pranayama practice and have been (fairly) consistent with the breathing for about four years. But still there is so much to know! I've just become aware of how forced - or constricted - my breath is on the exhale.This kind of minute observation can be extremely enlightening, as the link between breath, emotion and mind is slowly revealed. For instance, my pattern of either holding my breath, or taking a large "gulp" of inhale, as if there will never be enough. Then a rather hard exhale, as if it could be dangerous to hold on to too much air. Then a sort of dribbling out of what remains of the exhale. Hmm. How interesting!
Noticing that pattern this morning, and applying as a remedy a simple technique recently learned in a "Yoga for Asthma" workshop, I managed to calm my mind enough to have a satisfactory meditation for the first time in weeks. While most pranayama practices really can't be learned from a book, this "single breath with a slight pause" can be done safely without a lot of training.
THE PRACTICE: Breathe in and out through the nose. Fill and empty the lungs as completely as possible, without forcing. Keep the posture erect but not stiff, and the chin parallel to the floor. If you become dizzy or lightheaded at any time, stop immediately and return the breath to normal.
Take a few normal breaths, then breathe in slowly, gently and deliberately. Pause. Breathe out, slowly and gently. Pause. Continue. Try to keep the breath even and steady. Notice any thoughts or feelings that arise. When this pattern feels comfortable, begin to count the breath: Inhale 1, 2, 3, 4, pause... Exhale 1, 2, 3, 4, pause. If this feels okay, again very gently increase the length of the exhalation until it is twice as long as the inhale. Inhale 1, 2, 3, 4, pause... Exhale 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, pause. Continue for only a few minutes to begin with. After the practice, take a few moments with the eyes closed to fully absorb the benefits. Notice how much calmer you feel. Carry this feeling within you for the rest of the day.